If I was a Man

I think that If I had a penis I'd make a much better dude than most. I mean I'd probably make a better boy than I do a girl seeing as I know some amazing girls that I could totally get if I had a penis or would want more. Though of course I don't have a penis nor do I want one, I think it'd be awkward but being a boy seems so much easier. Girls are so much nicer. Well at least the ones I meet are. All around me girls are getting screwed over by jerks. UGH I just want them to feel better. :/ If only I was a guy, first I'd make sure those jerks didn't hurt my friends ever again then I'd show them how to be a real damn man!

Out of the Cloest and into the World

I'm addressing a a few things here. Well the obvious one is what the title implies. For all my social networking cites I'm putting my orientation as 'gay' as most put it. That is because I prefer girls to boys. normally I would have put that I'm bi because I am but there are way to may girls that say they're bi when they aren't they just say they are for attention. I on the other hand don't want male attention, like they're trying to get. Apparently liking girls is attractive... I don't see why honestly. I mean I do like gay guys but only because they are sweet and aren't flirting with me. They're just being nice. Not to mention they're much cleaner and less perverted most of the time. Not to mention I don't want to date a Bi girl. The ones I've met are the "popular" girls in my school and they are anything but nice. I'm not trying to offend all bi girls because I am one and I know there are more that are more like me then the ones I know. I would love to meet you if you are... ♥Thank you for reading ♥

Gender Issues

No this entry is not insulting bisexual or homosexual people. It is about my own gender issues. Truthfully I'm a supporter of gay rights and its just plan stupid that they don't have the rights straight people do. I mean there is no difference! They just love their own kind there is NOTHING wrong with that and it doesn't affect straight people in anyway so you homophobes need to just get over it. I don't care if you are the one person who actually reads my blog! Get over it! They aren't hurting anybody. It just stupid that people condemn what they don't understand. ANYWAY... On to the reason for the title. I have gender issues of my own. You see I like both girls and guys, simply because I just like them as people not for any hormonal reasoning. Of course I do find them both attractive, more so girls than guys but still. I kind of still like guys but I like girls more. I want to be able to be sweet and flirty with girls without getting dirty looks. I don't mean just to people I know go that way. Maybe it's just my confidence level. :/ I just want to change. In appearance. I don't know what to do. I say gender confused because my first thought after I decided to change how I look was to look like a boy... I'm just so confused. Well If you are reading this and have any advice I would love to hear it. Thank you lovely people for reading this, I love you. I'll be sure to make another entry explaining how things went.

Online personalities

Has anyone else noticed that people are different online then in real life. I don't mean visually. I mean there are a butt load of perverts all over the internet but could you imagine meeting the offline? I'm willing to bet any money that they won't be as rude, obnoxious, and perverted as they were online. Just because you meet someone online doesn't mean they want what you got. Really like me, personally, I don't. I'll admit guys are the worst but girls do it too. Believe me, I've had a few girls be the same way. In person though, people are nothing like that. That makes me wonder if like my best friend could be one of those freaks. Of course not my BEST friend, I stalk him so I would know... But that is another story, for another time... another post. Anyway, I'm just saying you're boyfriend/girlfriend could do that! You wouldn't know! I mean I know a guy who does it. Though he is pretty nice... Still flirting with random girls and being all dirty even on the internet is cheating. It's just not right. Being disrespectful like that isn't right either. It just makes me feel like the internet is filled with nothing but nasty perverts. I really hope that isn't true because the internet wasn't made for corruption like this...

Different=the same

I see myself as just like every other girl in the world. I don't see anything really "Special" about me. Maybe the difference between me and any other girl would be that I don't really try. I don't pretend to be like everyone else because that is cool. I don't say I like certain bands or artist because others do. I like who I like and if you don't like the then that is just to bad. I know there are girls out there like that but I also know there girls out there who pretend. I on the other hand am one that doesn't. But I am the same as everyone else in some ways as well. For example, I like the same kind of guys every other girl likes. I always have because those are the kind of guys I was raised around, like my uncle, they were the true out casts. I love the way they look but I hate how they all claimed to be original, claim to be unique when really all these scene/emo kids are a dime a dozen. I hate to be rude but honestly for every one emo/scene kid there is a dozen that look exactly like them. I know that might be very offensive but it's true and it is the same with those kinds of girls and all the people who try to look like them. I can honestly say that I can't blame any of the people who try to be like them though because they are just afraid of not fitting in. Though I look nothing like any of these people. I know exactly I classify and I bet I don't fit in anywhere but I won't change that. But believe me sometimes I wish I could just look like everyone else. With their scene/emo look so I won't be picked on and I could just blend in, maybe find a boyfriend. Though I DON'T look like that and I am shunned for it. I'm not like everyone else. I don't go out and party, drink or have sex. I stay home, I write, I study, I draw, I spend time with my family. I don't have a million friends that all they know about me is my name. I have a little group of friends but they know everything about me. I mean it sounds good and all but sometimes I just wish I could fit in.