Daddy Issues

I miss him so much... And by him I don't mean a lover. I mean someone who was like a father to me. I just hate how people can just up and leave. It makes me feel worthless and stupid. Not only that but it seems like it permanently damages my emotional state. I feel like I can't get close to anyone with out expecting them to just up and leave. It has lead to a hand full of trust issues I don't know how to deal with. Maybe I need counseling but even then how would the treatment go without them there. I act like nothing is wrong when in reality I know there is but I also know I can't fix it and doubt anyone else can either. That is why I don't usually complain about it unless given a reason too. Maybe these Daddy Issues are what is making me so confused about everything in life. Maybe I'm just messed up. I don't know, and I may live my life never knowing, pushing all my feelings and needs back. Honestly it wouldn't surprise me if I did. It feels like all my life my need for stability has been neglected. My situations just jump all over the place, where I live, who I live with, who loves me. None of that ever stays the same for too long and it feels like I don't either... I guess my point is, people, don't abandon the ones who love you, even if you are mad at them. It could scar them for life and every bad situation gets better if you are mad at them. Especially parents, your children expect you to be one of the few people in their life that will be there for them. Even teenagers, we count on you to always be there for us and we love you. A child's love for their parent is one of the strongest loves I have ever experienced. Even if they aren't willing to admit it they need you, the ones that love you need you... (Song to explain how I feel right now)

Out of the Cloest and into the World

I'm addressing a a few things here. Well the obvious one is what the title implies. For all my social networking cites I'm putting my orientation as 'gay' as most put it. That is because I prefer girls to boys. normally I would have put that I'm bi because I am but there are way to may girls that say they're bi when they aren't they just say they are for attention. I on the other hand don't want male attention, like they're trying to get. Apparently liking girls is attractive... I don't see why honestly. I mean I do like gay guys but only because they are sweet and aren't flirting with me. They're just being nice. Not to mention they're much cleaner and less perverted most of the time. Not to mention I don't want to date a Bi girl. The ones I've met are the "popular" girls in my school and they are anything but nice. I'm not trying to offend all bi girls because I am one and I know there are more that are more like me then the ones I know. I would love to meet you if you are... ♥Thank you for reading ♥

Why must teenagers blogs be so confusing?

I looked up people who liked the same bands as me on here. It was kind of an accident, when I clicked the band I thought it would take me to like an internet search on them or something... But nope. Just some people on Blogger that liked that band as well. I thought, heck why not! Lets see what this blogging thing is all about, maybe I'll learn a few things. Nope! I just got completely and utterly confused. I mean their blogs all looked like inside jokes to me. Yet NO ONE commented on them so bad inside jokes I guess? Yeah all I know is that didn't help me figure out what to put on my blog... I think I'll just stick with my random topics that probably no one wants to hear about anyway. seriously, I didn't want to hear about how two boys were fighting over this one girl... And it wasn't even like a story it was just, "OMG (insert random boy name here) and (Insert weaker random boy name here) are going to get into a fight... nag nag nag..." I was like well I COULD be interested in this if I knew what the HECK was going on, but NO! Not to mention all the blog entries consisted of 2 sentences or less. I was like, really? The extent of all of your thoughts is two sentences... okay then, bye bye.