About Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan

Known by many people as The Rev, short for The Reverend. James Owen Sullivan was not only an amazing drummer for Avenged Sevenfold, but also a ingenious song writer. He composed much of Avenged Sevenfold's, not only music but also the lyrics to the songs too. If you actually know who I'm talking about, even a little, you'll know he died in December of 2009 from a drug overdoes. His death shook the band because Avenged Sevenfold (Commonly known as: a7x) was a band full of friends, not just because an important part of their band was gone. Jimmy was the lead singer's best friend since they were just kids. 

There is another thing that is really interesting about his death that some people don't know. This is the song they made, well actually The Rev wrote it only three days before his death. It has somewhat of a message if you listen to it. He was said to be a depressed person sometimes but he always tried to make others feel better even if he wasn't happy himself. The song he wrote before he died, which they think is a sign he knew he was going to die, was called Fiction. And > HERE < it is. His best friend, the lead singer, M. Shadows also had a few things to say about his death and this song. Obviously he was beyond the point of upset. He talks about how Jimmy (The Rev) was his best friend and was the people in their bands best friend for eighteen years and how every day he thinks about the loss of his best friend who was not only a their partner music. And going with that the band wrote a song dedicated to Jimmy (The Rev) this is called So Far Away. Here is a link to that! > ♥So Far Away♥ <

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More Information

• Jimmy introduced m. Shadows to his current wife
• He died on December 28th, 2009
• The Album "Nightmare" was dedicated to him
• Born February 10th, 1981
• He died at the age of 28
• And I'm sure some people are familiar with their saying Avenged Sevenfold (Or A7X) foREVer Obviously REV is capitalized for him :)

News Update!

Well I've seen that people seem to like things about Celebrities. Who knew? Well I guess I'll add some things about them, if I like them. As for random emotional things. There will probably be more of that. And Music reviews, I Still have to get to that. Anyway, I've been gone for a while... If anyone had noticed... O.O I'll be posting some more things soon. Even though I know I have lots of Chemistry work to get to. If anyone has any suggestions feel free to make them in a comment here. Thank you for your time! ♥

Do you get the Message?

I'll make this little post here about the messages of some of my favorite bands. This messages are often misinterpreted and I absolutely HATE it and I don't hate much.

Black Veil Brides

Listen to them here!

and

Blood On The Dance Floor

Listen to them here!

Their message is to just be yourself and not to let what others think of you affect you and who you are. Basically they are anti bullying bands. They have completely different sounds and styles and with that different fans. Yet they are prosecuted all the same. People who don't pay attention think they are "gay" or "some little girly bands" Which is belittling them and their talents and it is WRONG! Their parents obviously didn't teach them respect!

And Black Veil Brides is also, all to often associated with satanists and bad influences. I can honestly say I don't at all understand that because if you've ever heard any of their songs they support people who are being bullied and remind them that they are not alone. They NEVER do anything satanic they don't tell listeners to kill or do anything really stupid just to make their own choices and not let anyone stop them from reaching their goals or being happy. Now really, what is wrong with that?!

Blood on the Dance Floor is often called vulgar and inappropriate but they just love to have fun. Their songs are upbeat and make people want to get up and dance and have a great time and that wasn't on accident. They want their fans to be happy, they love their fans and have said so many times. They also send a message like Black Veil Brides that reminds their fans that they are not alone and that they will be their for them the best they can.

Measuring Life

I hate when older people will speak to you like you know nothing. Like their plethora of knowledge highly exceeds your own when in reality they don't know just how much that person they are speaking down to has went through through out the trials of their life. Personally I know people my age that people don't really take seriously that they really should. I don't want to put anyone else's personal life out there but I'll use my self as an example. People think I don't know what its like to lose someone because no one very close to me has died quite yet. I understand that yes it is something traumatic and hard to go through but personally I think I have been through worse. I'm not saying it is as sad or should be pitied but I'm just saying that it is if not more, just as emotionally scarring to have a parent completely abandon you. Their argument is that I can still look that parent up and find him but honestly, at least the person you lost didn't chose to go, they didn't abandon you simply because they didn't want you. If my father died, I wouldn't even know that he had passed so he is as out of my life, as someone who had died would be. 
Then there is this false thought process that plays out years instead of experiences. You could be a million but have experienced little to no change and never had to cope with much in life compared to a teenager who's parent walked out on them,who's parent had a significant other that abused them and that teenager, as a child, feared for their life. The teenager could have been neglected and forced to care for their younger siblings, or they could have no parents at all and had to bare life always going from foster home to foster home until someone finally adopted them. 

What I'm trying to say is that older people need to stop assuming that they have been through more or are more intelligent then someone younger than them. Life isn't measured in years it is measured in your experiences and overall the contents of your life!

School

I know I've been gone for a while, honestly its a school thing. I hate school, well besides the learning that is, but I have to go and I have to graduate. The only thing that really concerns me is what I'm going to do after I'm done with school. I just don't know where I'll go or what I'll do. Its kind of a sinking feeling. Sure I'm not stupid but I'm no genius either. I want to start planning my future but I just don't know where to being. I don't know how adults did it. I guess its time to ask my mom some questions. After her boyfriend leaves of course. BLEH!

I know this was probably boring and I apologize, I just hope I'm not the only one stressing about this. Everyone else in my school either has everything planned or they don't care... Well at least if you're reading this and are going through this, you know you aren't alone. You are never alone ♥

Dahvie Vanity

Okay so here is where I will tell you what I know about Dahvie Vanity from the band Blood on the Dance Floor! Okay so his full/real name is Jesus Dahvie Torres. His parents are from Puerto Rico but he was born in Fort Bragg, North Carolina. Though he was born in North Carolina he was raised in Florida.Growing up he was bullied and called fat and so he let that hate inspire him and he worked out and became who his is now because of it. That is one reason he has the saying, let the haters hate or what ever it may be. He teaches his audience not to listen to what people say or to turn the negative comments into productive criticism like he did when he was younger. His parents were also in the Military. His eyes are hazel green and he is 5'7"(5 feet, 7 inches). Oh and he was born September 5th, so if you want to give him a gift or something. On top all that his girlfriend died and so in honor of her he made the song Believe. It is an amazing song and it makes me want to cry especially knowing the story behind the whole thing. Oh and a random fact: He likes Chicken... A lot apparently. :3 I found this all... well almost all on a video but I don't quite remember how to find it so I'm afraid I can't link it here. 

Anyway! Thank you for reading! ♥

Writers Block?

I know ALL writers, well all of the ones that I know hate writers block. I do too but I don't know if what I get is writers block exactly. I just get bored with writing it. I mean I feel like I can write more but I just have no desire to because my brain feels fried. I don't think that is exactly writers block I think that is just laziness. Though saying UGH I can't think of what to write! I have laziness. Well that just sounds way less professional. I think I'll call it burn out... or Brain melt. Yeah brain melt sounds much more like what it feels to me. Maybe that's just me though. I may be the only one to get brain melt. Seeing as I named it I'm sure other people call it different things if they do have it. Mostly because the name I chose sucked. Anyway I was writing a story well actually one then I melted. After that I started another one. Neither are finished but I hope to finish one of them or preferably both. Well what do you guys think of putting my stories on my blog? Is that a bad idea? I don't really know...

BOTDF Mom

Okay so I'm a big Blood on the Dance Floor fan and so I watch a lot of things about them. I watched one video and found the most amazing comment about BOTDF being banned or kicked out of the warped tour... Here it is "I am a mother of a 15 year old who attended Warp Tour with her I love BOTDF. Where can I sign a petition for the band to stay on tour? I would love to know why these parents are allowed to drop off their 11 year old children anywhere let alone a concert! In most states you cannot even leave them home alone! I bet those girls weren't being so innocent that day and got busted or scared so they now have a story at someone else expense! my best wishes to BOTDF .....Jess's Mom" I thought it was the most amazing thing in the world. Rarely ever do you see a mother stick up for her child's music and support their musical interest. Heck my mom doesn't really support much that I do. She is to close minded and set in her ways but this mom was totally open to her daughter's interests. I would love a mom like that. Some people may find it embarrassing but let me tell you I'd do anything to have a mom that was that way. So Jess you are one lucky girl. Anyway I just thought that was absolutely amazing! I thought I'd share it with everyone and maybe it is something moms can learn from. As long as you're open to things like this I think you and your child will have a better relationship. The most you can do is try and my advice is to try because like I said if I had a mom like that I think I'd be in heaven. I wouldn't mind going to any concert with my mom as long as she liked it with me. Maybe that is just me though? Well I don't think it is.

What lies Beneath the Surface

Many people judge others on things as simple as their outer appearance or how they may dress. In reality how people dress and who they really are have nothing to do with each other. I have seen people that scare me and I would typically expect them to be rude or scary. When in reality they were the sweetest person in the world. For example a Youtuber named Blake Bliss. If I just simply saw him I would think he was going to be rude and scary. I think everyone's mind just immediately processes people a certain way. There isn't much you can do about that itself but you can give these people who may look unpleasant the benefit of the doubt. Using Blake as an example again Blake Bliss is the most kind, gentle, caring person I have ever seen on youtube. He literally cares about all of the people that watch his videos. I love his personality so much and I have never even met him. The point is the people that you wouldn't normally talk to because they may seem a little different are sometimes the most amazing people to be around. You never really know until you actually meet ans talk to them. That goes for the other way around as well. You may think, wow this guy/girl looks amazing but in reality they could be so rude and obnoxious. I'm not saying the people are the opposite of what you think of them, I'm saying you should really get to know someone before you really decide if you want to be their friend. You never know, people may surprise you. I know I was surprised a few times. I know this is a message most people think they already know but I don't think many people actually do this. They may claim they do but they really don't or at least the people I have seen don't. I think it is something we should all do more often though. Thank you for your time. And if you were wondering who Blake Bliss is I'll show you one of his Videos: Blake Bliss-Beyond Bliss(Day24) <<< It is amazing, you can click it to see it. CLICK IT!

Why Teenagers DON'T tell their parents everything

Just to tell anyone who may not know. If you haven't read my blog before I am a teenager and I know this title may not apply to everyone's parents but in most cases it does. Parents say they want to know everything but what they don't know is that parents, like children, have to gain trust. If a child tells their parent something and they flip out on them instead of talking to them rationally or if they handle simply situations poorly children won't be comfortable telling their parents things. This applies to any topic or field of conversation. If they are trying to tell you they are dating someone you don't like and you flip out, they will carry that into other topics such as drugs and peer pressure as well. In my case my mother never seems to really care about the words that escape my lips. I will tell her about an celebrity idol I have and she never seems to care or really listen. I remember that and just decide not to tell her things. Not just things about my idols but also things about what happen to me in my day to day life. For example, who I'm dating and things that happened that day even if they are important. And its not because I have anything to hide, it is because well she didn't want to know about me then and she probably won't now either. Another place where parents need to let children speak is during arguments. Most parents get mad and just basically tell their children to shut up when actually they may have some valid points that you didn't think of. Parents need to understand that they are only human to and that their children have a good level of intelligence as well. Despite what parents might think you didn't teach them EVERY thing they know so you don't know everything about them, no matter how much it is you know.

My Excuses

I know I haven't posted and it seems like forever to me as well. You may be like Bleh! I don't care but I do, Anyway I was on vacation for a week. After that I had to keep my "cult" (I know weird thing to call it) on Vampire Freaks, going. It is actually very active despite the fact I only have like 6 people who actually post. I'm also very proud of the progress my blog has made in my absence and I will try mu best not to be absent anymore. Mostly because this is my favorite one of my blogs. I'm also planning on writing something called Writing is an Escape. It shouldn't be to long because I have a minor case of A.D.D or something and my train of thought seems to get off track a lot... Then again it could just be all that crap about today's youth and T.V/Video Games/ Computers... I'm not quite sure. Back to the point, I'M BACK! And though I don't really know who the people are that read this because I don't stalk my views... Though it does seem like they give you the choice somehow... I'm not that skilled. Anyway, back on topic. I'm back and I've missed writing very much. And if you are viewing... Thank you so much for your support! You're the best!

Daddy Issues

I miss him so much... And by him I don't mean a lover. I mean someone who was like a father to me. I just hate how people can just up and leave. It makes me feel worthless and stupid. Not only that but it seems like it permanently damages my emotional state. I feel like I can't get close to anyone with out expecting them to just up and leave. It has lead to a hand full of trust issues I don't know how to deal with. Maybe I need counseling but even then how would the treatment go without them there. I act like nothing is wrong when in reality I know there is but I also know I can't fix it and doubt anyone else can either. That is why I don't usually complain about it unless given a reason too. Maybe these Daddy Issues are what is making me so confused about everything in life. Maybe I'm just messed up. I don't know, and I may live my life never knowing, pushing all my feelings and needs back. Honestly it wouldn't surprise me if I did. It feels like all my life my need for stability has been neglected. My situations just jump all over the place, where I live, who I live with, who loves me. None of that ever stays the same for too long and it feels like I don't either... I guess my point is, people, don't abandon the ones who love you, even if you are mad at them. It could scar them for life and every bad situation gets better if you are mad at them. Especially parents, your children expect you to be one of the few people in their life that will be there for them. Even teenagers, we count on you to always be there for us and we love you. A child's love for their parent is one of the strongest loves I have ever experienced. Even if they aren't willing to admit it they need you, the ones that love you need you... (Song to explain how I feel right now)

Out of the Cloest and into the World

I'm addressing a a few things here. Well the obvious one is what the title implies. For all my social networking cites I'm putting my orientation as 'gay' as most put it. That is because I prefer girls to boys. normally I would have put that I'm bi because I am but there are way to may girls that say they're bi when they aren't they just say they are for attention. I on the other hand don't want male attention, like they're trying to get. Apparently liking girls is attractive... I don't see why honestly. I mean I do like gay guys but only because they are sweet and aren't flirting with me. They're just being nice. Not to mention they're much cleaner and less perverted most of the time. Not to mention I don't want to date a Bi girl. The ones I've met are the "popular" girls in my school and they are anything but nice. I'm not trying to offend all bi girls because I am one and I know there are more that are more like me then the ones I know. I would love to meet you if you are... ♥Thank you for reading ♥

Gender Issues

No this entry is not insulting bisexual or homosexual people. It is about my own gender issues. Truthfully I'm a supporter of gay rights and its just plan stupid that they don't have the rights straight people do. I mean there is no difference! They just love their own kind there is NOTHING wrong with that and it doesn't affect straight people in anyway so you homophobes need to just get over it. I don't care if you are the one person who actually reads my blog! Get over it! They aren't hurting anybody. It just stupid that people condemn what they don't understand. ANYWAY... On to the reason for the title. I have gender issues of my own. You see I like both girls and guys, simply because I just like them as people not for any hormonal reasoning. Of course I do find them both attractive, more so girls than guys but still. I kind of still like guys but I like girls more. I want to be able to be sweet and flirty with girls without getting dirty looks. I don't mean just to people I know go that way. Maybe it's just my confidence level. :/ I just want to change. In appearance. I don't know what to do. I say gender confused because my first thought after I decided to change how I look was to look like a boy... I'm just so confused. Well If you are reading this and have any advice I would love to hear it. Thank you lovely people for reading this, I love you. I'll be sure to make another entry explaining how things went.

Online personalities

Has anyone else noticed that people are different online then in real life. I don't mean visually. I mean there are a butt load of perverts all over the internet but could you imagine meeting the offline? I'm willing to bet any money that they won't be as rude, obnoxious, and perverted as they were online. Just because you meet someone online doesn't mean they want what you got. Really like me, personally, I don't. I'll admit guys are the worst but girls do it too. Believe me, I've had a few girls be the same way. In person though, people are nothing like that. That makes me wonder if like my best friend could be one of those freaks. Of course not my BEST friend, I stalk him so I would know... But that is another story, for another time... another post. Anyway, I'm just saying you're boyfriend/girlfriend could do that! You wouldn't know! I mean I know a guy who does it. Though he is pretty nice... Still flirting with random girls and being all dirty even on the internet is cheating. It's just not right. Being disrespectful like that isn't right either. It just makes me feel like the internet is filled with nothing but nasty perverts. I really hope that isn't true because the internet wasn't made for corruption like this...

Eyes Closed

I close my eyes for what seems like a moment but when I wake up I find I've been out for days. I lost my best friends. All my feelings are gone... I have to cut it off. Leave, like I always do. They hate me. They all do and I can't blame them I hate me too. I always leave. It's not that I have to it is just that I automatically detach myself. I feel like I don't have control anymore. I feel like my mind pushes people away with out my okay, with out me even knowing. By the time I realize it all it's to late and there is nothing left. I just wait, for someone who can change that, for someone who can fix me. I feel like I really am broken, my mind is broken. From years of abandonment. They come and leave as suddenly as they came. I got hurt so many times from them that I push away before anyone else can hurt me. I don't try to. I want to love forever I want to stay close but I can't there is something in me that won't let me. I hate it and it hurts the ones I love... I just wish I could control what ever is doing this to me... I wish I could control myself.

Blogs

I have edited all my blogs to make them look prettier. Well pretty in my eyes. Including this one and I'm so proud. Now I have to do some more research on mental illnesses for my 'The Voices Speak' Blog. I'm actually really glad I added that because it will help me stay focused on my studying. Oh and I started following one Blog, she's writing a story and I absolutely love to read. I hope she doesn't find that weird. That is what Blogs are for, isn't it? They are to have people follow and to read. Well I thought so, Oh and I still don't know what a member is sadly. Blogs are kind of confusing to me still, I'll get used to it though I just know it! :D I also plan on having song reviews soon just because I LOVE music! If you're reading this tell me what you think of the idea?

Status Report!!!

No followers. Or members... Whatever a member is... Yeah If you're reading this and even so much as have a good guess to what a member is then can you PLEASE tell me because I feel retarded for not knowing. And for all you technical junkies I know what retarded means and it doesn't mean mentally challenged it means slow! And that is how I feel, slow. So ha! I win! Anyway here is some more news. I got a some American people reading this apparently, or at least LOOKING at it. I feel so proud. And I just wanted to say thank you if you are reading this. Well here are some personal stats I am single... Oh yeah! No not really being single actually makes me quite depressed. Umm I'm around 5'4"(5feet, 4inches) or 5'3"(5feet, 3inches) I don't know how much that is metrically though, sorry. I've actually been asked that though and I didn't know what to say. Oh how I hate that there is more than one system of unit measurement. Anyway... Yeah I just kind of want to know what in the world a member is. Well I'm gonna go shower now!(To much information?) 

~See ya! Thank you for reading ♥

Ronald Joseph Radke

Okay I decided to dedicate this post to my idol, Ronnie Radke. I Love the guy. He's been through so much and still manages to fight his way back to the top. For anyone who doesn't know who Ronnie Radke is the former lead singer of a rock band called Escape the Fate. It is said he went to prison for so many months for being involved in a fight were a man was killed. Though I have heard what I believe to be the real reason. He was kicked out of the band Escape the Fate for using drugs (Which is hypocritical because the bass player sold them to him and did them himself). He couldn't make a living because one, he was a drug addict and two, the way he looked he couldn't get a job anywhere. There for he couldn't afford the rehab he needed and had a hard time finding a ride to his probation officers (for the fight). That all resulted in so many months in prison. There he recuperated and got his mind straight. He no longer does drugs, he has written several lyrics to songs in jail and he is now out and has been since late last year (2010). He now has a band named Falling in Reverse, formerly known as Behind these Walls (It was named that because he was trying to make his music in prison).  Okay now you know Ronnie Radke and you probably know more about him than most of his "fans" do. Anyway I dedicated this post to him because he taught me a few things like:

• Never give up
• No matter what you go through you can make it out
• Be careful who you trust because not everyone is trustworthy
• No matter what you're background you can work your way up
• You always have your real friends no matter what

And those are just a few things... I Love you Ronnie Radke!

Why must teenagers blogs be so confusing?

I looked up people who liked the same bands as me on here. It was kind of an accident, when I clicked the band I thought it would take me to like an internet search on them or something... But nope. Just some people on Blogger that liked that band as well. I thought, heck why not! Lets see what this blogging thing is all about, maybe I'll learn a few things. Nope! I just got completely and utterly confused. I mean their blogs all looked like inside jokes to me. Yet NO ONE commented on them so bad inside jokes I guess? Yeah all I know is that didn't help me figure out what to put on my blog... I think I'll just stick with my random topics that probably no one wants to hear about anyway. seriously, I didn't want to hear about how two boys were fighting over this one girl... And it wasn't even like a story it was just, "OMG (insert random boy name here) and (Insert weaker random boy name here) are going to get into a fight... nag nag nag..." I was like well I COULD be interested in this if I knew what the HECK was going on, but NO! Not to mention all the blog entries consisted of 2 sentences or less. I was like, really? The extent of all of your thoughts is two sentences... okay then, bye bye.

What others think

I think teenagers spend to much of their life on trying to impress others when they should just be finding out what makes THEM happy. Personally I know that it is true because I see my friends do it, I see people at school do it, and I have done this as well. In reality we will all eventually find out that it doesn't matter what others think of you and it never has and never will. I'm afraid that some people find this out much to late and waste so much time just trying to please people that will never like you no matter what you do. I know its not just me because if that wasn't the case make up wouldn't be so popular and those tight, revealing, and/or uncomfortable clothes wouldn't either. Personally, I do where make up sometimes but only when I'm bored and do it to make myself happy with how I look. If I did it to impress others my mom wouldn't look at me like I had ten heads every time I put an outfit together. I don't look 'sexy' and I don't want to. I look crazy, weird and like myself and that is exactly how I want to look. I just wish other people could realize that you should just be yourself, not just in personality but in every aspect of yourself. I understand you want to fit in but don't you want people to like you for who you are as well? I know I do. I'd rather have three friends that like me for me then a thousand that like me for who I pretend to be. This is me and you are you and if you don't like me there is nothing you can do. I will never change and neither should you.

Different=the same

I see myself as just like every other girl in the world. I don't see anything really "Special" about me. Maybe the difference between me and any other girl would be that I don't really try. I don't pretend to be like everyone else because that is cool. I don't say I like certain bands or artist because others do. I like who I like and if you don't like the then that is just to bad. I know there are girls out there like that but I also know there girls out there who pretend. I on the other hand am one that doesn't. But I am the same as everyone else in some ways as well. For example, I like the same kind of guys every other girl likes. I always have because those are the kind of guys I was raised around, like my uncle, they were the true out casts. I love the way they look but I hate how they all claimed to be original, claim to be unique when really all these scene/emo kids are a dime a dozen. I hate to be rude but honestly for every one emo/scene kid there is a dozen that look exactly like them. I know that might be very offensive but it's true and it is the same with those kinds of girls and all the people who try to look like them. I can honestly say that I can't blame any of the people who try to be like them though because they are just afraid of not fitting in. Though I look nothing like any of these people. I know exactly I classify and I bet I don't fit in anywhere but I won't change that. But believe me sometimes I wish I could just look like everyone else. With their scene/emo look so I won't be picked on and I could just blend in, maybe find a boyfriend. Though I DON'T look like that and I am shunned for it. I'm not like everyone else. I don't go out and party, drink or have sex. I stay home, I write, I study, I draw, I spend time with my family. I don't have a million friends that all they know about me is my name. I have a little group of friends but they know everything about me. I mean it sounds good and all but sometimes I just wish I could fit in.

Death...

Death... I never really thought about people dying around me much. It is a pretty morbid thought. Of course I have thought of it and cried but I hoped it would never have to come to that. Its different when someone you know loses someone they love. I tend to block out things that will hurt me. Hold my feelings back but I can't help but be sad that his father died. It makes me think about how I would feel so could better understand him. The problem is that I detach myself from others and/or any situation I may be in that is uncomfortable. Which give me a hard time when I'm trying to feel others pain and that is what I want to do right now... It just makes things so complicated. I don't know how to feel. I hope he rests in peace and that he had a good life but I can't really help that. I also hope that Robert some how finds the strength in himself to carry on and hopefully be happier again. He wasn't really a cheery guy to begin with. I just hope he finds an aura of normality after such a tragedy. All I can really do now is pray because he doesn't have the heart to talk to people at the moment. I can't say I understand but I can see why he wouldn't want to talk to anyone and could see why he would be upset. I want to help but honestly there probably isn't anything I can do about this situation. I wouldn't even know what to say.

Blood on the Dance Floor obessed loser

I slept literally ALL day...I missed like 6 text messages... And one by the guy I like and haven't talked to in forever. UGH I fail at life. I have to try to regulate my freakin sleep cycle. On the bright side my cult on VF is doing better than expected. Yeah I clearly have low expectations. Ohh ha ho I'm so boring. This is what the diary of a lifeless person looks like... -.-' Well yeah I'm making Blogs for my voices instead. They do better than me. Oh and on a different note. My friend doesn't like me listening to Blood on the dance Floor, she thinks they're perverted. Crazy girl... This is not perverted: Blood on the Dance Floor

Nocturnal

Lately It seems that I've turned into an owl or something. No matter how hard I try to sleep it just doesn't work until the sun comes up and no matter how hard I try to stay awake that never works until the sun comes down... Uhhh my internal clock is all screwed up! Then there is the fact I have no life and get bored after I wake up. Then there is the fact of what I dream about when I am asleep. One night I dreamed of my ex and it made me cry. Another I dreamed of one of my best friends. Yeah and not in the way I SHOULD be dreaming about my best friends. It's just horrible. When you start dreaming of human interaction you know you're lonely... Actually I haven't slept since like six o'clock yesterday because that is when I woke up. Yeah I don't know how to fix it but if anyone does could you please tell me in the comments? Anyway I'm thinking of making a blog for my more... talkative... sides? I don't really know what to call them exactly. Yup that's pretty much all I can think of at the moment. I know boring... should have named my blog... >WASTE TIME HERE< Hmm wonder if I can change its name...

Role Playing (Not the dirty kind)

I don't really see the point of this when I doubt a soul will read it but I am bored soo... Here goes nothing. Well I love writing and living a life that is not my own. That is why I have many characters I like to play. One is Jayden he is a schizophrenic killer. He has some major anger issues and kind of snaps sometimes. He's very strong and very violent as well. (Which is nothing like me) Oh it's so fun to pretend. Another is Jayyson.He is a deceptive and cruel demon. He doesn't care about anyone about himself. His back story is pretty cool though but again he is nothing like me. In my role playing I rarely play a girl and due to the fact that I have one I find that fairly unusual.  I don't really understand it but okay... That and the fact all the sides of myself I argue with in my head are all men just makes me a tad bit confused. That reminds me, I also play a character named Jeremiah. I've also written a lot about him. He's one of the sides of myself. He's kind when he needs to be but usually he's cruel and ruthless. XD I so would never read this if I was me.... And I am, so sad. Oh so very sad. Well anyway. If you want to find and meet those characters after wasting your time reading this, You can find them and me on Vampire Freaks [dot] com/His_Guardian_Angel.